A moment of questioning overwhelms me..

"Am I on the right career path?" asked I...

but myself answered: "Nothing else makes more sense."

I asked yet another question: "But can I last possibly 8 more years of schooling?"

myself: ......? >:/

And would investing that much money make any sense if I have a family...?
I may marry I may not who knows... but if I marry and have a family I would have to quit my career for awhile until my young ones were into at least middle school.. and if such is the case, maybe I shouldn't be a psychologist..

Yet.. if I were to remain single.. I could do a lot as psychologist and possibly establish my own outreach, ministry, and be there for kids in need whole heartedly. Whereas if I had a family I would be split in dividing the time and wouldn't be as accessible to kids in need.

I'm a little torn, because I could see myself as a mother and the idea of being a mother is beautiful and is appealing.. but at the same time I could see myself as an active, independent, working woman devoted to a cause involved helping the youth and children of today.

God, take my this mentality of mine to plan ahead.. I rest my future in Your hands.. Because that is not my part of the load but Yours, because you know that this is too much for me to handle. You already have everything worked out. So I'll live in the today and wait on You..

-Knightess

Tis... true... I'm terribly picky

Your Best Trait is Creativity

You may seem like you're a bit flaky or flighty, but you're really just deep in thought. You are the artistic type, no doubt. However, you are also highly analytical and logical. You are able to solve problems in unique and interesting ways. Your ideas are unpredictable, but they always end up making sense. You are picky and sometimes downright critical. You expect the best of yourself, but others are not prepared for your exacting standards.

I'm in a depressed mood today...

My brother left at like 4 yesterday morning and the after effects ended up with me sobbing my eyes out, listening to the Punk Goes Pop 2 Album and Tokio Hotel, and watching a tear jerking japanese movie called, Koizora. It's so beautiful and sad that I cried for about half the movie. That might say a lot considering I broke only a few tears over the Notebook, but that and having my brother leave for his senior trip and me not seeing him till maybe my Thanksgiving break or Christmas break. Probably made for an extra tearsome movie session....I seriously don't know what I'm going to do with out him!!

I leave for PUC in two days! I'm excited, but nervous....